the deep agony

it's been long long time ago i didn't post any. this site almost lost its life & i feel the same. been too busy w everything. many unexpected things happened. things changed. the are really unpredictable,out of my thought. what to say? nothing much can be done. cried a river :( everybody know crying can't solve anything but why we keep doing it? don't blame any. mad at the fate much,fck.
anyway,i'm done w all the tests. i'm feeling like a hubbub free butterfly. but still,things are keep stucking in my mind. i don't feel any excited,even though long holiday is in my hand right now. little thing gladden me a bit,but just in a short time. i'm so distressed right now. i'm too lazy to face everything these lately. i hope everything goesbetter,byeee