the rescue

everytime when i start to type,everything flies away. sometimes i have a lots to tell,but after considering for times,the story left untold. i have feeling that my mid tests' results are worser than i could ever guess. specially the dearest lovable microeconomic. the word of micro has totally messed up my mind and i can't even imagine the time when i should facing the macro. who says college is fun and easier than high school? i do really want to slap them with my slippers,seriously.

“people come,people go – they’ll drift in and out of your life,almost like characters in a favorite book. when you finally close the cover,the characters have told their story and you start up again with another book,complete with new characters and adventures. then you find yourself focusing on the new ones,not the ones from the past.”  - nicholas sparks,the rescue

lanky mine

yes,you might feel bored for reading my early greeting which always related to "i'm sleepy,i'm so lacked of sleep." but it's always the fact. nothing great happened lately but everything goes well. just me who always broke everything. i just dropped my ipod to the floor and it's been more than 5 times,really. found out the new cracks on the screen and what i really did was just cursing myself. dafuq did i do,my hands are just way too shoddy for a girl. just can't count how many things had been broken by these lanky hands. some people think that i'm a graceful lady yet they're totally wrong. once again,it's WRONG!

"life moves pretty fast. if you don't stop and look around once in a while,you could miss it." - Ferris Bueller's Day Off

wimp to the ky

"i am me. in all the world,there is no one else exactly like me. everything that comes out of me is authentically mine,bcause i alone choose it. i own everything about me: my body,my feelings,my mouth,my voice,all my actions,whether they be to others or myself. i own my fantasies,my dreams,my hopes,my fears. i own my triumphs and successes,all my failures and mistakes. bcause i own all of me,i can become intimately acquainted with me. by so doing,i can love me and be friendly with all my parts. i know there are aspects about myself that puzzle me and other aspects that i don't know. but as long as i am friendly and loving myself,i can courageously and hopefully look for solutions to the puzzles and ways to find out more about me. however i look and sound,whatever i say and do,and whatever i think and feel at a given moment in time is authentically me. if later some parts of how i looked,sounded,thought and felt turn out to be unfitting,i can discard that which is unfitting,keep the rest and invent something new for that which i discarded. i can see,hear,feel,think,say and do. i have the tools to survive,to be close to others,to be productive and to make sense and order out of the world of people and things outside of me. i own me and therefore i can engineer me. i am me and i am so okay."

hiii! i want 10 hours of sleep. 7 hours ain't enough for me,never. want to get into bed as early as possible. but always,there'll be sth ruining my plan. read this wimpky morron book ,having a good time and chilling w myself,the most favorite thing to do. seems like i will haunt the other chapters of the book. and idk what kind of feeling currently i feel. so complicated and i'm getting confused w myself. decided to do cover w steven and catharine after this mid test week. nothing more to say,so byebye

F photography

  

hi hi hi hi hi! i was so stressed abt the quiz. and going to be more than stressed abt the mid test. i feel regret for joined science class. my brain says null abt management and all the subjects in it. how i wish i could escape myself from college and everything abt knowledge. okay,sorry for talking shits.

i joined photography contest just for the certificate. 10 certificates are required in graduation which is still 3 years hundred days later. so,i have tiny business with firbert. guess i'm too sly. to be true hahaha! i won the contest. thanks for the kind-hearted who voted for me. and it's also bcause of the photographer. these are his work,take a look! :D

credit to @CtbertLicious

this photo won the contest :p

back to hellydays

hi! just got back from study tour. everything was quite fun! but skin getting tanner and i'm so sleep-less. some of my anguishes during those 5 days :

• carried my overweight bag and one big plastic bag bcause of not taking luggage
• my wallet is crying out now
• my right arm was harmed when i escaped myself from vex ghost at haunted house
• my new shoes were broken when i ran from the ghost who was chasing me away and the accessories were left inside 
• two of my room-mates heard someone walking towards me when i'd fallen asleep in the middle of the night in the popular scary hotel 
• my friends told their scary incident in their room and the results,my room-mates should carried me to my room,i had no guts to walked me to bathroom and i endured my pee a night long

that's all for now. don't have too many pictures bcause i didn't bring my camera there. tests are coming in this week and i haven't touched them yet. rip me and byebye.

bull and shit

if i type about "those" who talk bullshit,this page won't never ever be enough. why? ask them,don't ask me. ask them why they created bullshits in that uber large amount. they think they're cool with all their creepy bullshits. it's just what they think and reality talks the reverse. actually they should be ashamed with everything which came out from their mouth. licking own spittle ain't cool,dude. get offense? not my business.

"silence is better than bullshit."

as a dumby

2 months has passed. but me,the dumby,is still stupid. i still need to learn and learn more. made mistake for third times. yes i'm the most pitiful human,maybe? my salary has flown away LOL. actually i should be sad instead of laughing like an idiot. life is hard,it's so true. hahahaha a day long. i'm mad already. everything arround drives me crazy.

going to have short holiday for 5 days like finally. having study tour at KL w collegians sounds uber great. nothing more to say,byeeee!

 jiajia is way too cuteeee ☺♥

                           

emily the strength - new lappie background ☺

heaviest tiny thing

when someone cries so hard that it hurts their throat,it is out of frustration or knowing that no matter what you can do or attempt to do can change the situation. when you feel like you need to cry,when you want to just get it out, relieve some of the pressure from the inside - that is true pain. because no matter how hard you try or how bad you want to, you can't. that pain just stays in place. then, if you are lucky, one small tear may escape from those eyes that water constantly. that one tear, that tiny, salty, droplet of moisture is a means of escape. although it's just a small tear, it is the heaviest thing in the world. and it doesn't do a damn thing to fix anything. sitting, typing, staring, breathing and aching.
currently uber addicted w aj rafael's we could happen,justin bieber's catching feeling. sick w maroon5's beautiful goodbye. they are keep echoing in my head,till the time when you read this unimportant post.

“it has been said, 'time heals all wounds.' i do not agree. the wounds remain. in time,the mind,protecting its sanity, covers them with scar tissue and the pain lessens. but it is never gone.” 

- Rose Kennedy-

i will never understand why i ended up this way or what the reason was for. i'll never understand why this world is so fucked up and barely anyone cares. i'll never understand how people can say they love someone then leave them. i'll never understand a lot of things,like why people lie,cheat and steal. why they are rude,mean,bitchy,horrible and inconsiderate. i'll never understand how pain never goes away. i'll never understand love or hate.
i'll never understand life and everything in it. never.

-anonymous-