brokenhearting dream

hello! i eat a lot these lately. i think i'm really getting better. but i kinda feel it will hast its limit. i know i can't feel as good as i were yet better than nothing. i'm waiting for my short holiday vacation on june. i need fresh air to refresh things in my mind. i hate being alone in my room when i don't have anything to do. my mind flies away,flashbacks & imma real a hubbub then. anyway,may i say fuck off? ohyes i just said it. idk whyyyyyy i'm nearly mad & afraid of sleep. i've gotten nightmare for three times in this week. the sensation they made really chopped my heart,brokenhearted. those shitty dreams have successfully broken my heart,am totally nut!