hidden feeling

hi,i do feel so muchie better than before. everything is gettting better slowly. i don't expect for a quickly one. slowly but sure hehe :D

sometimes it's hard for me to describe what i feel. something which is so complicated,when you try to rethink over and over but you still don't know what you're feeling yet you do really realize you're feeling something.

nah,i often get that feeling these lately.

boredom is killing me slowly,i'm a real unemployed. i need a job. i've been always waiting for this time. earn some money by myself. but i stuck at one thing,i'm a real real sleeplover. i don't want to wake that early during my holidays! the criterias of my dreamed job are:

1. when i do wrong,the boss maybot blabber me up

2. i can choose the shift by my own so i can sleep as long as possible

3. simple & easy job with a high salary

4. someone please slap me bcause imma out of consciousness kthanksbyeeee :)

miago captured this :D<3

the deep agony

it's been long long time ago i didn't post any. this site almost lost its life & i feel the same. been too busy w everything. many unexpected things happened. things changed. the are really unpredictable,out of my thought. what to say? nothing much can be done. cried a river :( everybody know crying can't solve anything but why we keep doing it? don't blame any. mad at the fate much,fck.
anyway,i'm done w all the tests. i'm feeling like a hubbub free butterfly. but still,things are keep stucking in my mind. i don't feel any excited,even though long holiday is in my hand right now. little thing gladden me a bit,but just in a short time. i'm so distressed right now. i'm too lazy to face everything these lately. i hope everything goesbetter,byeee

wanna escape to paradise

hi,tomorrow is cny,what a night. sitting down in front of lappie to pass this cny eve. feel so bored & got not too many things to type about. viewed old photos at bali years ago. i miss being there. being at paradise for a week long. sitting in the seaside in the early morning. i miss the feel when the sole of my foot touch the whitey softy sand. i miss bebek bengil fulled my tummy. i miss the paradise & feel like wanna escape myself from this hullabaloo town,soon :(

say hello to holidays.

this ain't long one

hi,finally it's friday. time passed so quick or it got something wrong w my clock? oh just forget it. i'll skip tomorrow class,make my own holiday. chinese new year is coming & i don't really think it's so special this year. ain't it? or just my feeling? the time when i was kiddo,got home and felt so happy w the heaps of redpockets. it's quite different w now. feel so awkward to receive so many reds yet you won't ignore:D will have family gathering tonight & also a quality taim w miago heeee♥. not a long holiday,just got 8 days,indeed i need more,more and never enough.

random things

calmy is so craved

hi,this is lazy sunday,really. haven't taken any bath yet it's 5pm already. 1001 night cynthia's blast at JW was great.
also having a quality taim w miago heheee <3 have discussed something about 17teen w mom. she said it's a significant moment and blabla. i'm in her cage. everything i'll do should be confirmed. even the tiny thing like this is taken care of her. this question is always surrounding. when i could do something by myself? by my own decision? could decide something by my own? yet she's the one i love the most :(
really don't think so & i never get what she meant. significant & quality moment are depend on who you're celebrating w. not because huge of humans come to your party and so on. some say i'm weird or what else. don't like crowdy moment,place.
prefer sitting in the corner alone. i feel so annoyed of noisy all around me,you're the one will be stared at. oh-faint! just like you play dinner dash,all you hear is noise.
i'm feeling like want to plug something in their mouth. peaceful,calmy place is the one i crave the most. i think like oh seriously :(

the only moodbooster failed

first of all,big sorry. fckin disappointed w today. terribly excited then fckin worst modiness i got. yes i'm way like a kiddo who is so fckin spoiled when i'm sick. i feel so fckin bad. idk how fckin worst my feeling now and i got a fckin fever. i'm so fckin want to end this fckin night. it suffers me a lot. don't give me any fckin comment about my post cause you don't have any right. yes,maybe through these fckin sentence,i'll feel better or worse? :(((((((((((((((((((

butterfly in cage

hi,holiday was over & i do really need a longer one. gonna be bored again to face the reality that i've to step my foot at school. can't wait for chinese newyear's holiday. even though i wasn't going anywhere,i prefer to stay at home to handing books for my half day. let's back to holiday. i've gotten so much fun,quality taim♥ so extremely terribly glad. somehow,it was my very first experience of having kind of that quality taim & i don't even imagine it :p crave for more & never felt enough :( big big sigh,used to sleep & wake up lately during the holiday. nails are trimmed,nail polished are removed. hello daily alarm,daily routine & school,geez :'(

heehaw all the time

hiii hellies! it's lazy sunday. nowhere to go,stay at my room all day long. took a shower at 2pm and lunch at 4 pm,what a lifeeee :D weather does really support the day lol teacher's day is almost near. heels hurt my leg alot. gonna be superbusy these few days,big big big UGHHH. luckily,last night quality taimm heal everything messed :p really crave more. arrived home lately,again my eyes did HAHA. the time when you feel so sleepy & you force your eyes for being so wide awake,imagine and do it. kthanksbyeee! ♥

lemme answer

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let's answer

Let’s start off with your relationship status:
i swear,i don't know how to answer this question HAHA

Could you have sex with the last person you text messaged?
are you fckin kidding me? no

Have you been disappointed in the past three days?
a big NO

Honestly, has anyone seen you in your underwear in the past three months?
bathroom's wall

Are you alone right now?
no :D

Have you ever kissed someone who was high?
yes,my dad

Have you ever fallen asleep in school?
one,two,three lets count

Who’s the biggest douche bag that you know?
I don't know

Do you like anyone?
yes :)

What about dislike anyone?
ofcourse

Do you have empty bottles of alcohol anywhere?
don't get the empty or even the full one

Who was last to slap your butt?
michelle!

Do you have siblings over the age of 21?
-

Relationships or one night stands ?
relationships!

Where is your biological father right now?
is there chemical father?

Honestly, did you really love the last person you said I love you to?
MUCH <3

What do you usually do right away when you wake up?
reach my blackberry

When was the last time you were told you were cute?
-

If you caught your significant other cheating on you what would you do?
-

Ever sat in someone’s lap because there were no more seats in a vehicle?
lol never

Do you have sex everyday?
..........NO

Last person you talked to on the phone?
my mom

What’s the closest black thing to you?
my blackberry

What were you doing last night at midnight?
i were in dreamland

Has anyone ever called you perfect before?
no ms perfect in this world

Is there anyone in the room with you?
home alone now

Can you honestly say you’re okay right now?
ohyess

Is any part of your body sore?
my tigh

How old will you be turning on your next birthday?
seventeen

Have you kissed the last person you texted?
nooo

Do you want a tattoo?
yes if my mom allowed me to

Has someone of the opposite sex ever told you they loved you?
lol you think i'm lesbi?

Next time you will kiss someone?
...is thinking

What are you planning on doing after this?
shut down my lappie,and study my chemist

Ever kissed someone that smokes?
ewwwww a big big no

Could you go a month without talking to your best friend?
i can't -,-

Anything surprising happen lately?
noo until today

Whens the last time you fell asleep on the couch?
-

Do you believe what comes around goes around?
yes

What song are you currently listening to?
price tag

Waiting for anything?
yessss :D

If you had a tree that could grow anything you want, what would it grow?
money and happiness :)

Have you ever wanted to have someone but you messed it up?
no

What are you excited about?
sleep all day long

You’re single, why?
this is not the right time for me to be in a relationship maybe :D

Something you really want right now?
................................................... amin

Did you drink anything with alcohol this week?
i'm a girl w/o alcohol

Do you know anyone who’s been in jail?
no

Let me guess, your last incoming call was from the opposite sex?
you're totally wrong. it's my mom

What do you bite on more, your tongue, lip, or nails?
lipsss

Are you nice to everyone?
it depends on how they treat me

Have you ever cried from being so mad?
yes i'm gushy

Are you someone’s best friend?
yes :D

Have you told anybody you loved them today and meant it?
yes!

Camping with a ton of friends or hotel with a few friends?
choose camping if you are a mosquitos lover ;p

random feelings inside

hii hellies,give my widest smile while i open the refrigerator. heavenly,full of chocolates. and acnes are so welcome,just did face treatment with mom last day. keep blabbering on me,this is the reason of those chocolates. feel like can't stop mucnhing them. snapped some photos,yes i'm too relaxed.

just got home hours ago. feel so tired,did school modelling audition. shitty heels,really. got random feelings. happy in sudden,angry in sudden and sad. have so many things spinning around my mind days ago. seems like everything screws up! have no intention to talk about it but really i need somewhere to pour them all out before i goes mad. everybody is so fuckin selfish and so i am. for the helliest hell,i don't like that situation. kthanksbye! ☺